In the past two weeks I have visited a number of seniors in my congregation. I have to say that the experience has been a little unnerving. In these visits I encountered paranoia, gibberish and sexual frustration. All the while I walk the halls to find a particular room and a particular person and in the process pass by men and women sitting with their heads tilting back and to the side staring at the ceiling or staring at nothing at all. Some moan. Shouting can be heard coming from some rooms. This, I imagine, is the fate of the majority of westerners; that is if they are lucky enough to be able to afford one of these places and can get in. There is nothing absolutely nothing in nature to preserve our mind and body. It is the natural order to become decrepit and crazy. One woman was fondling my hands continually repeating it would be wonderful if my hand could be outside . . . could my hand be outside . . . do you think my hand could be outside. This is the culmination of life. There is no dignity ahead. Know that now. Let that inform you now. These people are not becoming less human they are becoming more human. They are returning to our original essence which is formless and void. Hold on and reinforce all you want.
Really, though, these people are crazy . . . and we accept it. It is more human to be crazy than to be not crazy. I remember one piece of graffiti I saw which read all of god is insane. It was the ‘all’ that got me. But they are not crazy and god is not insane. We build out of ineternal materials and so we slow down the flow of divinity thinking it will cease, reside, rest but the Tent must always move. And when a middle aged person acts like any single person I am referring to above then we fear. And at times for good reason for they are still strong enough to enact this strange divinity. They are in step with the speed and we cannot keep up. No I am still wrong. We are all crazy. It is simply a numbers game. How many people are convinced of which truth. Love is what differentiates. Love is what cuts along the the arbitrary horizon of sanity.